19 days and counting

So it’s finally under 20 days! And my nerves are so real!

My house is a mess, my room is in shambles and my to do list is HUGE! After my big hiccup with my car, and many days without a vehicle and Huck being stuck at the Doctor’s, I finally have my car back and he’s running smoothly. Today I stopped by a UHAUL place to double check my tow package to see if my light hookup works, and my car will be able to tow a 5X8 trailer! All is good, and all is possible! This is a big victory because everything next is easy!

We have also finalized our trip up there plans! We will be leaving Texas on the 27th and driving straight through to Blanding, UT. I will have my sister, and my mother driving with us so we are confident in our drive straight to UT. Sunday, we will be an hour from Moab and we plan on visiting the Arches National Park. This is something I am super excited to do because I was planning on a trip there this summer anyways! This National Park has been on my must see list for some time now. So my adventure bones are pumped! Then after our escapades in UT, we will be headed to Idaho Falls. I’m not sure we will be able to see what I want to see there because we do need to continue to Anaconda, Mt. But that doesn’t mean I can’t visit there once I am settled into my new life up in Montana! My adventure bones are so excited to be where I am going to be because I am so close to so many National Parks. And the plans of buying a year National Park pass will allow many trips to these many parks! Are you excited? Because i’m stoked!

So now, with just being 19 days away from the big move, there’s more cleaning and packing to be done and tying up loose ends here in Texas. Not to mention saying goodbye to the many people I have surrounded myself here in Texas!

I did mention my nerves being out of whack recently because of this move, and I feel like I should mention those fears because a move like this will awaken some fears and i’m not necessarily ready for this move as much as I think I am or as much as others may think. I am terrified of being so far from my family. Everyday I think, oh hey I’ve been away from my family before but that’s only to places like summer camp or moving out of my mother’s house when I was 18 to a place 25 minutes away. Now, I will be a 25 hour drive, 1,700 miles away and a roundtrip plane ticket. That’s insanely far to me. And not to mention that I know NO ONE up in MT. I am going completely blind, and unattached. I won’t have those comfort friends to call up when I want to go grab a beer. I wont have someone to vent with when I get home from work on a rough day. This is going to be hard for me because I am so close with the people I surround myself with and I have never lived alone before. BUT I know I will meet friends, and new people to surround myself with. And I know my friends and family are a phone call or a skype video chat away. I know I can make this move work because i’m excited to start a entirely new life up there.

This move doesn’t feel real to me yet, but I know as the days get closer and the number left dwindles, I will start to feel it. And as nervous as I am, I am still extremely excited!

TA TA FOR NOW!

Sincerely,

Hannah Montana 🙂

The first big hiccup

Well… things cant always go right! 

No matter how easy this trip planning and big move has gone, Huck, my 2002 Nissan Xterra went to the doctors yesterday and he is sick. Huck needed new rear brakes, an oil change and now transmission work. 

I have such bad luck with vehicles and I wish I could ride a horse everywhere but that’s not a reality in this real world. So, after a panic attack over the phone with my mother and father separately, Huck got the okay to get fixed. I’m not happy about this, because of how expensive vehicles are but now I know that I’ll have a safe vehicle while up in MT. Hopefully we’ll survive the pending winter tundra together. (For those in warmer weather like myself right now, it’s still snowing in MT: they’re called snow showers. Which means, it snows throughout the night, and as the day goes on the snow melts until it’s not there anymore! It’s crazy!)

And now we can continue counting down the days, May 26th can’t come faster! 

With love,

Hannah Montana 🙂

And the journey begins

Well hello y’all! (yes I said y’all!)

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So where do I begin on this big journey of mine….
This past December I walked the big college stage and began the beginning of the rest of my life. In January of this year, I started an internship as a Recreation Therapist at the Austin State Hospital, and my passion for mental health help grew.

Going through school I always imagined myself working with victims of human trafficking and forced prostitution, but when I began this internship I began to see a huge need in the public sector of mental health. Especially in Texas. Working at a State Hospital you see the bare bones of state health care. I saw cuts, drawbacks but people continuing to help others despite all the things the State threw at them. I loved that, and I wanted to continue with it. This past semester was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I drove my 1.5 hr commute crying almost everyday when I began working the floor. The extreme stories of some of the children I worked with broke my heart into pieces, but seeing the resilience and the strength these children had gave me hope. Before starting my internship I made the decision to apply for graduate school, and that was my dream. And after getting accepted, my dream soared. I was so excited.

But…. after talking to clinicians at the hospital I was interning at, I decided that I wanted some field experience as a Recreation Therapist before spending more money on another college degree. I’ve been mulling the ideas around my head that I would like to pursue Counseling or Social Work, instead of a graduate degree in Therapeutic Recreation. So with this new idea in my head, the BIG GIRL JOB search began. I began searching the nation for state psychiatric hospitals with Recreation Therapy jobs open. The Austin State Hospital wasn’t in a financial place to offer me a job, so I looked out of state. I stumble upon a job posting for a Recreation Therapist position open at the Montana State Hospital, and I applied on a whim. I never thought I would even get to the point of interviewing, let alone be on first name basis with their Rehabilitation Director, but I did. I submitted my application, my resume and an emotional cover letter testimony. And after speaking to the Director, I found out that I was really the only person that applied and interview for the position. Well after an informal interview and a formal interview I was offered the job on the very last day of my internship. SOMETHING THAT IS COMPLETELY HARD TO FIND! Me, Hannah, very recently college graduate finding a BIG GIRL JOB before I had my diploma in hand. Me, Hannah, finding a job that will give me full benefits, weekends off, paid vacation time and in a place that is in the middle of National Forests and National Parks. What more could an outdoorsy, adventurous girl and her pup ask for?!

This all seems too good to be true right? Wrong! This is working out so perfectly and it terrifies me. Me, Hannah, a Southern California girl moved to the South of the USA, moving to the northern tip of the USA. I’ve seen sand and surf, i’ve sweated throughout the winter time, and now i’m moving to a state that snows a majority of the year. WHAT AM I THINKING? Well, i’m thinking about the people that need help. I’m doing this for myself, getting a new start, starting a new life, living healthier, but i’m also doing it for the people struggling every day with mental health crisis’.

This all means, I have a month to pack my stuff, pack up my dog and cat and move 1,700 miles away from home. A month to find housing, and to solidify the specifics of this job. Can I do this? Yes, I can, and YES I did. I applied for a one bedroom cute little green house, without a cosigner, and I was approved the next day. And within a week, I will have my lease to sign. The next big step was to find someone to take over my rental house in Texas, which I did in a matter of days. With the help of my mother, father and my sister, I was able to complete all of this. I haven’t slept much at night due to my anxiety of moving hitting me right before bed, but I am comforted knowing that i’m not doing this alone!

AND THE NEXT THING TO LOOK FORWARD TO IS THE DRIVE TO MONTANA WITH MY MOTHER AND MY SISTER. The stops along the way, Moab, Monument Valley, Idaho Falls, this nature loving girl’s heart is so FULL!

I hope y’all are ready to hear updates and notifications of this journey!

With love,

HANNAH MONTANA 🙂